Alone

The darkness is all surrounding

Smothering me like a blanket on a newborn

I don’t have the set of skills yet to get it off

I can’t find the sunshine

It’s summer when I look outside it appears as if the sun is out but when I go outside all I feel is grey

So I hardly go outside then tell myself I’m wasting away the summer

I’m emptier then the toilet paper section during covid

My limbs feel a hundred pounds over weight and it’s hard to get out of bed

When I look in the mirror I can tell I lost weight

My appetite just isn’t the same

When I look in the mirror I can tell I lost my smile

I just don’t feel like myself anymore

When I look in the mirror I don’t like myself

So I try not to look in the mirror anymore

My friends stoped calling weeks ago wait I mean months ago ….. actually I think it’s been about a year now

I’ve never expected to feel so alone

amortizing:

“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

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hellish-daddy:

“There are some people who could hear you speak a thousand words, and still not understand you. And there are others who will understand. without you even speaking a word.”

— Yasmin Mogahed  (via amortizing)

hellish-daddy:

“So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More Compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide.”

— Meredith Grey (via perrfectly)